Category Archives: nature vs. nurture

An Awakening..

At times I feel that we aren’t quite living every second completely.

We might live in our fantasies for minutes at a time in every single day. We may even catch ourselves just wasting away what time we have left happily walking a path we made in our minds. Maybe that was a little too blunt, but you get the drift. Many of us are in a constant search for another level of consciousness, a different perspective, an awakening of sorts.It had always felt that my mind seemed to wonder a bit too much, but I felt it was natural, a shared habit with far too many to count.

It took quite a while to change the lens that I view life through. I am truly seeing beauty in almost everything, a world full of color. It has allowed me to lighten the burdens hanging on my shoulders. You see, I seek perfection, something largely unattainable, but I yearn for it nonetheless. The experiences we have as people are all opportunities to find the positives in each situation. They are our paths to growth, though we don’t acknowledge that in the moment, it is beautiful. If there is a moment that changes the perspective in our lives, I hope that everyone finds their truths in it. Life should be experienced completely each second and the tick of every clock should be enjoyed as if that was the first stroke of color in our lives.


..Until next time


A Hiatus for Perspective: Finding Peace

It should come as no surprise that I take time to write blogs and I say that lightly.

Well, it’s better later than never, right? Yes, it has been a while and for that I have learned so much more than the last time I allowed my mind to flow within the confines of this blog. Consistency is what people look for in a blog, a new post weekly, daily for some. I cannot promise that, but what I can promise is that with each blog that I write, time has brought me so many more lessons.

In my brief hiatus, I believe that as an individual, I have found peace. The phrase often lends itself to times that most expect to part ways with their material lives, but I feel that in life’s lessons, I have grown to accept the challenges. We are prone to worry, becoming frustrated over the unknown, our fate. I understand it completely, our minds race a hundred miles an hour and there is little we can do to prevent this. Personally, what has allowed me to be content with the hand I am dealt daily is the challenge. Challenges are at every turn and they just so happen to break up the monotony of routine in life. Routine, oh yes, many enjoy that and I do too at times, though it can be quite the bore. Naturally, we would live some stability and as we all know, routine brings about a sense of this.  As we look for our individual peace, we tend to just go through the motions. We are essentially breathing, but you cannot say that most are truly living.  The unknown fate keeps us up, it keeps us wondering; what becomes of us today, tomorrow, or in the not-so-close future. So, how can one gain the composure to find such peace?


Simple, right?

That’s what grants me peace to some degree. Of course we cannot prepare for every single challenge that comes our way, nor do we all deal with adversity the same, but mentally we can put ourselves on a plane that can look adversity directly in the face. Everything that we have observed or been through personally prepares us in some way or another. Yet, we panic and feel a sense of fear, even if we’ve seen the situation from afar.

In short, it is okay, but learn to embrace the experiences you’ve had, whether good or bad, they are preparing you for tomorrow.

..Until next time

Peace comes through preparation.

Which came first?

F good, What’s greater my readers? As one or two of ya’ll know, I’m sitting here waiting on this egg to crack so to speak. I’m a pessimist by nature. I never put all of my eggs in one basket because I’ve never seen a basket made out of Charmin and marshmallows. They all seem to be made out of cast iron, which ain’t that good for egg shells.

Enough symbolism.

I have a major distribution deal on the table for my record label. It could be a big break. It could be a set-up for disappointment. With that said, It’s time for a REALITY CHECK.

So what’s worse, a hater or a groupie? I really don’t know anymore. I decided to tell my internet family about my recent development. I wasn’t thrown off by the rapid influx of congrats and support, or the abundance of
,NT’s always shown love to me anyway; ever since I was 16 rapping “keystyles” with Kneesh from Chicago. But I was rather shocked to see how many people had only saltine things to say. I don’t know why it surprised me, after all, I am a pessimist as I said. What I want to ask my readers is this: Given the opportunity, is it more natural to support a complete stranger out of the “goodness of man”, or is it more natural to be in competition with a complete stranger seeing as we’re all under the same sun, sharing the same limited resources?

What wins out, natural or civilized behavior? We gotta get better as a people, people.

I’m not mad at my haters. Somebody has to hate and it’s not gonna be me. It might as well be you. I’d rather be the somebody winning the lotto. But that very basic instinct, that jealousy, is archaic and unnecessary. Whereas it might have given you the edge in surviving 1500 year ago, in this day and age it’s not like we’re competing to survive. Well, not in the sense that you would be affected by another man’s success in music. If I’m eating off rap, there’s more than enough food for you to fix a plate from whatever you’re good at. I’m not stepping on anybody’s opportunities, that ain’t real. That ain’t Rilla. I’m just embracing my own. It’s far too many crabs in this barrel today. Once you start climbing out of it, you’ll see for yourself

Live from LHNS, by way of Gangster Island,
Young Rilla